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So I took my little man in to the pediatrician again yesterday; he has an eye infection and is producing copious amounts of goop. He's only 6 weeks old, and HE WEIGHS 12 LBS! I can't believe how big he is getting! I'm a little worried about him gaining so much weight so quickly, but our doctor says he's fine. And she says we're not feeding him too much, either. I just want him to be healthy and happy. I have decided to give up breastfeeding and pumping. I'm a little disappointed in myself, and I feel bad that I can't do this for him anymore, but I was seriously losing my sanity and beginning to resent my baby. He deserves more than just a milk producer, and that's all I had energy for, with pumping every three hours and not getting any sleep. Benji still wakes up every couple of hours during the night, but it's a lot easier to feed him a bottle than to get up, pump, feed him, do the dishes (put away the pumping equipment), try to get him back into his crib, and try to get back to sleep myself. I have gotten a lot more sleep since we made the decision, and honestly, I feel so much better. I truly hope that I will have more energy and be able to go longer with our next child, but for now, that's how the cookie crumbles. Mmmm, cookies. So we are trying to figure out child care options for when I go back to work. My dear friend Peggy has said she can watch him, as long as I am willing to drive to her house . . . and she may be moving. Hmmm. And I don't want to stick her with the baby all the time. I know I need to figure this out pretty fast, and I really have been thinking about it; it's just hard asking for help.