I do have some plans this year, though. It is definitely time for some changes in my life, and I'm not sure that I'll be able to accomplish all of them, but writing them down is a big step. It also gives me a small measure of accountability. I don't expect anyone besides myself to keep track of what I'm doing. I will, however, be blogging about my progress (or lack thereof). I really am tired of being stagnant; I need to move. If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always had, right? Right.
So here are my goals:
1. Go to the temple. I haven't been in quite a while, which is my own fault. I have let a lot of things slide over the past couple of years, and I have really felt it spiritually. My recommend is not current, so it will take some work and discipline to get there.
2. Read my scriptures every day, and complete the Book of Mormon by the end of the year. I'm not saying I will be able to do significant study every day, but I will read at least one verse. It does make a difference in reminding me of what should be most important, and I have been slacking on that too.
3. I will do some sort of exercise everyday, even if it's just stretching or a few sit-ups or something. I'll try to walk or jog when it's warmer outside, but it's too dang cold right now.
4. Along with that, I will lose 50 pounds. This is a big step for me. It's totally do-able--less than one pound per week. It won't be easy; I'm not a good dieter. I love to eat. I really love to eat chocolate. And ice cream. And bread. And pretty much any carb out there. So controlling the impulses will be tough. It's not too hard at this moment, because it hurts to swallow pretty much anything right now. I'm trying to decide if I want to write my actual weight on here. I know it's not a secret that I'm a big girl, and I don't hide my weight very well, but it might take some time and courage to do it.
I'm hoping that actually doing a few things to take care of myself will help me be a better mother. If I feel like I'm worth a few minutes everyday, maybe it will help me realize how much more I could be doing for Benjamin.
Of course, I have all these grand plans now, when I can barely drag myself off the couch. I had to go to Smith's this evening, so I waited for a few hours until after my pain meds wore off (so I could drive legally), and it sucked. One small trip to the store should sap every ounce of energy, right? Well, it did. So that counts as my exercise for the day, because it might as well have been a two-mile walk.
I'll round off the resolutions with something fun.
5. Project 365. My version: take a picture every day, and write a little blurb about it. I'll try to post them here, though I know I won't be posting every day.
On that note, here is today's picture:
Just {another} picture of Benji in the bath. Once again, he had fingerpainted all over himself everything in his room, so he got a shower and a bath. He also got a haircut last night, because it was WAY long. Anyway, this isn't the greatest picture, but I wanted to put it up to show you how much he looks like me these days. It weirds me out, seriously. It's like looking into my own face. I want him to be his own person, not to think about me every time he looks in the mirror, but I guess I don't have much choice in the matter. Poor kid.
So that's where I'm at. What are your resolutions?
4 comments:
Let's be exercise buddies! Okay, well I wish we could, it would be fun. I've found that focusing more on doing what is good for my body keeps me moving more and is something that I have almost complete control over. I make exercise goals that are more like, exercise three times this week, and long term ones like running the Wasatch Back Ragnar Relay. That seems to keep me more motivated. I'm planning to start doing sort of the same thing with my diet. (Changing too much at once can stress you and your body to much, yet another reason why we tend to give up on things.) Having rules like no sugar (except for fhe) and always eating whole grain and grilled, not fried are just healthy things to do. Focusing on what I can control almost perfectly and not worrying so much about the number on the scale has really helped to keep me motivated. I gave up so many times in the past because I was doing the right things and looking for results that didn't always work out the way that I wanted them to.
I hope you got something from all of that babbling. Email me if you want to talk more. Good luck! You are amazing!
I'm not one for New Years Resolutions either, but Jon and I agreed that our big goal for the next year is to save our money. I am a spender, not excessive, but I do like a good shopping spree every now and then. NOt only that, I buy lots of little things and when I sat down to see how much all of those little things were costing us, I was amazed! So here's to a bigger savings account. We pray we can save enough to get out of our condo by Spring of 2012... a good 40 - 50 thousand. Nice huh. I wish we were saving up for a down payment on a house. That will be next!
Good luck to you.
Nice blog. And great resolutions!
I love the sweet pic of Benji. He is looking a lot like you.
And that isn't a bad thing. His mother is beautiful.
Good resolutions! I think you will do fabulously! Go for it!
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