It's pretty depressing when the surgeon you're working with says, "This is torture" in a way that only you can hear it. I understand that some doctors get easily frustrated, and it probably wasn't directed totally at me, but it still sucks. It makes me not-so-enthusiastic about my job. This particular surgeon isn't the nicest guy ever, and there are some techs who refuse to work with him. Unfortunately I get stuck in there fairly often, which isn't great for my self-esteem . . . not that it's that great to begin with.
I don't know what I want. I would love to stay home, but it's just not possible right now. Would I be better off working elsewhere? Should I go part-time? On a whim, I applied for a scrub position at Primary Children's. I wasn't sure if I was going to submit it or not, because it's for a day shift position, and we would have to find a babysitter/daycare for the boy. I thought I had only saved the draft, but I received a phone call to schedule an interview. That was last Friday, and walking into Primary's felt like coming home--I love it there, and I miss it. The interview was between just me and the OR manager, and we just sat and talked for about an hour. It was easy, and there were some good laughs about the differences and similarities between our ORs. They should notify me this week if they will choose me or not, and if they do, I honestly don't know if I'll accept the offer. After tonight--absolutely. I love my co-workers and many of the doctors, and that would be the most difficult part of leaving. I just don't know. I'm exhausted and something needs to change. The good thing about working day shift is that Allen and I might actually get some daylight together. That might be nice.
Do you ever wonder how you got to where you are in life? I know I made the decisions that led me here, but that doesn't mean that I want to be here. Yeah. Happy birthday to me.
5 comments:
Happy Birthday!! I'm sure whatever happens with your job will be for the best. :)
I hope they offer it to you just so you can have a choice of what to do; it's good to have options. Happy birthday!
Happy Burpday. I'll call you in a few minutes!
sorry about the "stuff" life is just crammed with it. I hope you got the job but I don't see how that give you guys more time together. But if it makes you happier or hopeful---I am with you.
I would absolutely love it if you came up to Primary Childrens. They usually have the scrubs work four ten hour shifts. What would your schedule be? It's very different than working on adults, kind of hard to get used to, but just like anything else... you get used to it. May be a good change of pace for you.
Bet I can guess which surgeon that was. Funny how some of them can walk in a room and instantly destroy any calm, happy feeling that existed in the room prior to their entrance. I don't miss that part of scrubbing at all. In the core, I only work with the nurses and scrubs and rarely interact with the surgeons. With that being said, there is a very different type of personality that works with children. Haven't encourntered a surgeon that I haven't liked yet. So much better for me.
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